Together

Its been a couple weeks since ive blogged... Lost my voice for acouple weeks I guess and couldn't find something to write about.

But last night while on Facebook I started noticing some things. Every one talks about the need to stop bullying in schools. Last night I started noticing something.

Moms bullying other moms.
Wth?

I (until last night) was a Co admin to a group that a friend of mine made, a "mom" group. Some where to discuss topics and ask questions. Which I thought was a great idea!
Until like most groups someone had to ruin it for everyone else.  Shoving there opinions in peoples faces, putting down other parents and there childs developments.

For someone to have the NERVE to put down someone else's child is.disgusting. Every child is different for you to think putting down there child/parenting skills is okay just because you put "IMO" (in my opinion) doesnt make it okay.

Curses

Why do people compare me to a trucker? Or sailor?

I'm sorry that I speak my mind and that curse words are part of my vocabulary... And yes ill be the first to admit using them doesn't phase me anymore which I'll agree it probably should, but id be lying if I said it did.

But because I swear doesn't mean my points are any less true. Im blunt, sometimes to much but I like it that way. I don't do it to hurt any ones feelings. Believe me that's never my first intention. But I don't see the point in being fake with people.

So how I see it, you want my opinion then you want my actual opinion. So don't get mad at me when I give it to you. If you don't want it, don't ask me for it.

Straight and simple.

Searching....

Chuck has agreed to move to clarington. I couldn't be happier!
It will be so much easier finding a place :)

I have replied to a couple ads today, but what im really waiting for is the newspaper tonight.

Fingers crossed.

Bath time.

Can I just say how much I love bath time now. Well other than the facy that its a battle for ethan to let me wash his hair. But its so much fun now to see him play in the tub, he is such a water baby just like his momma :) I feel like bath time is such a bonding experience.

Homeless.

Why is it so hard for us to find a place. Like I understand it is not easy for everybody but I just don't understand why I am having a hard time. I feel like all the pressure is on me, to find us a house, and i cant.
I don't know why, but it seems impossible.

Ive been looking since December.
FUCKING DECEMBER !
and nothing.

I just want to be with my family.
And no I don't mean my mom and such, even though I love seeing them all the time don't get me wrong
But I want to be with my boyfriend, and our kids.
And I cant.

Chuck has to live in a fucking trailer, because no one will take him in because of his dog.
And I am at my mothers with Ethan.
I am very grateful for my mother, taking care of me and Ethan for the past couple of months.
But like I said before, I just want my family.

I'm afraid that this not being able to live with each other is going to make me and chuck move farther apart emotionally. Its taking a huge tole on our relationship only being able to see each other once a month.  I'm afraid its going to push us apart to the point that we wont be able to fix what we have together, and that scares me alot. Its getting to the point that I'm emotionally drained now. That I can't think I can do this anymore, and that maybe just MAYBE its a sign saying we shouldn't be together.

I'm not sure.

But I'm very tired.

Belated anniversary :)

So Chuck and I have been together two years as of April 16th. Yes a day after Ethan was born is our anniversary haha. He was the best one year present ever!!! Lol.

But since Chuck and I have been put threw the ringer lately we didn't get to celebrate our anniversary til a month after, which isn't that big of a deal.

We got to go out to dinner just the two of us. We haven't gotten to do that in over a year!! Its hard to get a sitter for 4 kids under 5 lol. But we went to this little restaurant in town called the Massey house. Ive never been there so it seemed like a good fit.

Our dinner was amazing. Literally. Chuck is so picky to about restaurant found, he usually complains about something on it or something he would have done differently to it.  So for him not to complain, was awesome.

Sitting with him in the restaurant, being able to sit and talk to him and just listen to what he has to talk about. Was nice. Being able to sit and laugh with him reminded me of why I fell in love with him.

It was a much needed weekend together. :)

Up to scale.

Okay, I just want to put this out there about the people talk about people who are over weight.
This is just my point of view cause I have been struggling with my weight my entire life.
Always being the bigger girl.

1) I don't know where people get off assuming all over weight people are "pigs" or "slobs".
Everyone is built differently, just because they have a weight issue doesn't mean they sit there all day stuffing there face with doritos.

2) Did you ever think maybe it was more then just a weight problem? Like a actual medical issue.
Betcha didn't, well some do. And they can't help the fact that there over weight.

3) Stop judging them, because as being a over weight person myself, and knowing this first hand. There judging themselves fine without your help.

Growing up threw elementary school and especially high school!! Thinking of myself as a stupid fat piece of shit because I was so much heavier then basically 80% of the school. Putting my self down, and got to the point of hurting myself because I was so upset that I couldn't fit into a size 4. Always thinking and judging myself in the back of my mind "your the fattest one in the room".

I still catch myself sometimes thinking that way.
It's a hard habit to break.
Thankfully, now I have a man who reminds me everyday about how much he loves me.
And makes me feel so very special.

So before you go judging someone on there weight, stop and think.

How much are they judging themselves already?