Thursday, 24 May 2012


Why is it so hard for us to find a place. Like I understand it is not easy for everybody but I just don't understand why I am having a hard time. I feel like all the pressure is on me, to find us a house, and i cant.
I don't know why, but it seems impossible.

Ive been looking since December.
and nothing.

I just want to be with my family.
And no I don't mean my mom and such, even though I love seeing them all the time don't get me wrong
But I want to be with my boyfriend, and our kids.
And I cant.

Chuck has to live in a fucking trailer, because no one will take him in because of his dog.
And I am at my mothers with Ethan.
I am very grateful for my mother, taking care of me and Ethan for the past couple of months.
But like I said before, I just want my family.

I'm afraid that this not being able to live with each other is going to make me and chuck move farther apart emotionally. Its taking a huge tole on our relationship only being able to see each other once a month.  I'm afraid its going to push us apart to the point that we wont be able to fix what we have together, and that scares me alot. Its getting to the point that I'm emotionally drained now. That I can't think I can do this anymore, and that maybe just MAYBE its a sign saying we shouldn't be together.

I'm not sure.

But I'm very tired.

1 comment:

  1. I'm sorry hun, so sorry. Since Chuck has agreed to move, you could put yourself on a waiting list for geared to income places, like Jolena is in {they are nice!}. There are more options down south for sure! Good luck!